this is poetry

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Thursday, November 11, 2010

soul scream

soul scream


i want to hurt this body
in fact sometimes i want it to stop living
and i don't care if anyone believes me
they are busy medicating
i am starving
they are faking
i am throbbing
oh they wish there was something they could do
as they medicate
and forget
and worry and hope
and pray and forget again
i'm contemplating an end
for meaning somewhere

Monday, October 4, 2010

our secret friends



in between temper tantrums

i am completely still

swimming in the great bliss of God


I fall back into a body

carrying so many



an antennae

a temple

of the most holy

manifesting itself 

again and again


along with the monsters


the monsters 

are friends


i can prove it



just give them a name

and watch them change



for anger becomes healing

lust, understanding

superficiality causes manifestation

weak allows contemplation

meanness educates 

cold cannot spoil

ignorance carries bliss

and bitterness is safety


the monsters we run from

unnamed and ignored

grow large and distorted

and run after us 

over reacting

begging for attention


if only we could see

just a moment

of compassion

would send them home

to transform into blessings


how much we must enjoy

running from them


swimming in the fear 

we think is safety


it must be all apart of the story













Thursday, September 16, 2010

treasure of the moment

transitioning from one dimension to the next

feels like a small rickety plane is preparing for landing

in a pristine desert paradise

and neither reality fully exists

the rickety plane or the desert paradise

i am in between everything

i’m high in the sky, coming down for a landing

a bit shaky in a plane that has made it this far

the clear paradise is all around me

but i am still in the plane

and it has not landed yet

it could still crash and kill me

but it appears to be i’m landing safely

the sensation of picking up speed as the

ground grows larger beneath me

resembles piano concertos

kind of feels like dying

i’m  beginning to lean into it


Tuesday, September 14, 2010

make sure to drink water today

make sure to drink water today
and smile at your face in the mirror


make sure to stop and listen to your body if it needs it


make sure to soften your eyes
even when enemies pass by


make sure to stretch your thoughts
to things you think not
just in case
things get boring


work those fingers and use those toes


maybe even sew your own clothes


today is a great day to compose


anything